A Little Cynicism

It's been said that one of the best forms of communication are by experiences and feelings, mostly because they lack a descriminative bias from others. They are something evoked within us, something true and although its truth could even be debated think of it this way, could someone make you love something you didn't? And, can someone tell you otherwise about something you already lived?

As I was doing some recreational reading (something I usually tend to stir away from) I came across a verse that just grabbed me.

"Feeling is the language of the soul. If you want to know what's true for you about something, look to how you're feeling about it. Feelings are sometimes difficult to discover- and often even more difficult to acknowledge. Yet hidden in your deepest feelings is your highest truth."

I think I may have read this through and through- it only left me to wonder if this were the case with both bad and good feelings. You know, the feelings that give inspiration, hope, joy and happiness. Also the feelings that bring negativity, uncertainty and sadness.

How much truth can we find in them? What if how we feel about something doesn't coincide with the reality of it? Or if something for just a moment something produced such an innocent and sweet feeling and the next just the opposite- which one tells the truth?

Is it this very thing that I'm pondering- the cause for people not to trust in their feelings? Right now I feel like such a person which is the very contradiction of who I am. This leads me to the other form of communication- experiences.

I don't know how many times I've heard or read how our experiences teach us, how they help us grow and how they're such fundamental tools in learning- yet at this very moment I question if I learned the right things from mine. Especially if my experiences seem to carry a repetitious familiarity. It begins to feel like deja vu.

I've heard that "your experience and feelings about a thing represent what you factually and intuitively know about that thing." For the most part I've believed this as my own for a long time. I've trusted in my intuition and even more myself.

Yet my preaching of honesty, vulnerability and trust within the self has got me nowhere except here...